This update is from a friend - Nancy asked me to post so that will know what is happening in her world.
Nancy is still at St. Paul's Hospital.......she is improving everyday. She will keep you updated.
She loves you all, but she is not ready for visitors. Please feel free to post your comments on this blog. She cannot reply to you - but she loves hearing from you. Nancy says "have a great weekend!"
Friday, May 23, 2014
Monday, May 19, 2014
Sunday, May 18, 2014
Nancy's Book Club - 1st recommendation
Dying to Be Me by Anita Moorjani
I have found this book to be very inspiring, particularly Part 3. I offer it to you so that you may join me in this inspiration. And, while Anita's journey is remarkable, it is not predictive of anyone's future.
Gemma, Andrew and I are enjoying this beautiful day together - we've started a big 3-D puzzle! I feel great. Love, peace, joy.
I have found this book to be very inspiring, particularly Part 3. I offer it to you so that you may join me in this inspiration. And, while Anita's journey is remarkable, it is not predictive of anyone's future.
Gemma, Andrew and I are enjoying this beautiful day together - we've started a big 3-D puzzle! I feel great. Love, peace, joy.
Saturday, May 17, 2014
[Monty Python accent] "I'm not quite dead yet!"
I'm back.
I feel wonderful. Only peace, joy and love exist for me now, as fear has fallen away. I know this may not yet have occurred for you, and if not please hang in there - peace is but a breath away.
It's been a week of tremendous ups and downs. I'm still at St Paul's in palliative care, and they have done a wonderful job of draining the fluid in my lungs, and of drying them out with steroids (thanks Tyleen!), and they are hard at work trying to get me out of here so that I can move to a hospice near our home.
A few days ago, the physicians had a very difficult conversation with Andrew about my future, and how short it's going to be, in their opinion: a couple of weeks. AND, they also tell me that this estimate is simply that - an estimate. Keep in mind that at the time, I was at a low point physically and emotionally, and that since then, I've come through a lot, and am myself again, as you can see in the photos. Yesterday: showing off my legs; today: blissing on the sunshine in my room, dressed!
I contain all perspectives, and while all of them are valid, the most important is my experience of the present as it occurs for me: peace, joy and love. I experience NO FEAR. The miracle I have been creating and speaking about is occurring NOW. Please keep the faith you have demonstrated you possess and continue to send it in my direction. This message is in no way a goodbye. From the beginning, Andrew and I have been planning for the worst and hoping for the best, so this is not about denial.
I am in touch with my profound love for all of you. I am in touch with the fact that who I AM is profound love. I am also selfishly guarding my time with Andrew and Gemma. Until I move to the hospice (hopefully on Tuesday!), please no visits at the hospital. I know that requests for Andrew's time have been made. I wish to clearly state here that his time is for me. He is a prince and a saint among people. As time stretches forward, he will become more available to be with you, but for now please leave him to me. I look forward to sharing him again with you in times to come. Please use the comments section below to communicate with us.
Gemma is a fantastic human being surrounded by loving, caring people (many of you reading this are these people). We all get to love her and watch her grow - aren't we fortunate!
I have a life blessed by all of you!!! I am surrounded by love and in love with you all.
What an adventure we are on!!!
(for Monty Python fans, the last part of the skit of my life is not yet written...so we don't know how or when it's going to end...)
I feel wonderful. Only peace, joy and love exist for me now, as fear has fallen away. I know this may not yet have occurred for you, and if not please hang in there - peace is but a breath away.
It's been a week of tremendous ups and downs. I'm still at St Paul's in palliative care, and they have done a wonderful job of draining the fluid in my lungs, and of drying them out with steroids (thanks Tyleen!), and they are hard at work trying to get me out of here so that I can move to a hospice near our home.
A few days ago, the physicians had a very difficult conversation with Andrew about my future, and how short it's going to be, in their opinion: a couple of weeks. AND, they also tell me that this estimate is simply that - an estimate. Keep in mind that at the time, I was at a low point physically and emotionally, and that since then, I've come through a lot, and am myself again, as you can see in the photos. Yesterday: showing off my legs; today: blissing on the sunshine in my room, dressed!
I am in touch with my profound love for all of you. I am in touch with the fact that who I AM is profound love. I am also selfishly guarding my time with Andrew and Gemma. Until I move to the hospice (hopefully on Tuesday!), please no visits at the hospital. I know that requests for Andrew's time have been made. I wish to clearly state here that his time is for me. He is a prince and a saint among people. As time stretches forward, he will become more available to be with you, but for now please leave him to me. I look forward to sharing him again with you in times to come. Please use the comments section below to communicate with us.
Gemma is a fantastic human being surrounded by loving, caring people (many of you reading this are these people). We all get to love her and watch her grow - aren't we fortunate!
I have a life blessed by all of you!!! I am surrounded by love and in love with you all.
What an adventure we are on!!!
(for Monty Python fans, the last part of the skit of my life is not yet written...so we don't know how or when it's going to end...)
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
The breath of life
From Andrew:
In the last two weeks, Nancy's breathing has become progressively more difficult. A week ago, we required oxygen at home, and as the week wore on, she needed it more and more constantly. On Sunday, Nancy was in real difficulty, struggling for breath and experiencing acute anxiety/panic attacks when she became short of breath - that feeling of being underwater, and the surface is too far. You may know that she suffered from asthma as a child, in the days before puffers, so the terror is compounded by old memories.
On Monday morning, it was clear that we could not remain at home, as Nancy was in serious difficulty, and an ambulance trip to St Paul's hospital was quickly arranged. Scans and x-rays were performed, and the diagnosis was that taking a steroid to reduce the inflammation in her lungs and pleura would help, along with draining fluid that had accumulated in her chest cavity. That procedure was done this afternoon, and it has made a tremendous difference, "a new lease on life" says Nancy. Her breathing is much eased and free-er, she feels relieved, and looks a whole lot better too! We are all taking deep breaths of great gratitude and relief, and smiling with new hope. The photo was taken this afternoon after the procedure.
It is not impossible for her to still make it to Brazil on Sunday, but that seems quite unlikely at this point. We will see. In the meantime, she is delighted to be benefitting from the ministrations of a remarkable physiotherapist named Kristen Rose Duncan, who works with energy in effective and healing ways. Three more treatments on the way!
Nancy's pain is also now very well managed, using hydromorphone. A fantastic difference to no longer have pain be in the way. So now that pain and breathing are both improved, we hope that more mobility will return, as walking had become more or less impossible in the last week or so.
For now, Nancy remains in palliative care at St Paul's, likely for another couple of days, and then hopefully back home if we can arrange for suitable oxygen.
Nancy sends her love to you, and her heartfelt thanks for your intentions and prayers, which are surely helping. Keep 'em coming, please!
I am now off to secure a tasty dinner, as the food offered at the hospital is pretty much what you'd expect.
From me, an outpouring of thanks to all the heavenly and earthly Angels who are assisting in making this journey be one that is trimmed with love, support, practical help, and emotional and spiritual sustenance. With great love to you.
In the last two weeks, Nancy's breathing has become progressively more difficult. A week ago, we required oxygen at home, and as the week wore on, she needed it more and more constantly. On Sunday, Nancy was in real difficulty, struggling for breath and experiencing acute anxiety/panic attacks when she became short of breath - that feeling of being underwater, and the surface is too far. You may know that she suffered from asthma as a child, in the days before puffers, so the terror is compounded by old memories.
On Monday morning, it was clear that we could not remain at home, as Nancy was in serious difficulty, and an ambulance trip to St Paul's hospital was quickly arranged. Scans and x-rays were performed, and the diagnosis was that taking a steroid to reduce the inflammation in her lungs and pleura would help, along with draining fluid that had accumulated in her chest cavity. That procedure was done this afternoon, and it has made a tremendous difference, "a new lease on life" says Nancy. Her breathing is much eased and free-er, she feels relieved, and looks a whole lot better too! We are all taking deep breaths of great gratitude and relief, and smiling with new hope. The photo was taken this afternoon after the procedure.
It is not impossible for her to still make it to Brazil on Sunday, but that seems quite unlikely at this point. We will see. In the meantime, she is delighted to be benefitting from the ministrations of a remarkable physiotherapist named Kristen Rose Duncan, who works with energy in effective and healing ways. Three more treatments on the way!
Nancy's pain is also now very well managed, using hydromorphone. A fantastic difference to no longer have pain be in the way. So now that pain and breathing are both improved, we hope that more mobility will return, as walking had become more or less impossible in the last week or so.
For now, Nancy remains in palliative care at St Paul's, likely for another couple of days, and then hopefully back home if we can arrange for suitable oxygen.
Nancy sends her love to you, and her heartfelt thanks for your intentions and prayers, which are surely helping. Keep 'em coming, please!
I am now off to secure a tasty dinner, as the food offered at the hospital is pretty much what you'd expect.
From me, an outpouring of thanks to all the heavenly and earthly Angels who are assisting in making this journey be one that is trimmed with love, support, practical help, and emotional and spiritual sustenance. With great love to you.
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